Update...

So I received an job offer and accepted. That is right I am employed. I will be working at the community college doing institutional statistical research. I know you have no idea what that is. Basically, I will be making reports to show different things like graduation rates and entry trends. Anything and everything the school wants tracked. Plus the reports needed for the Federal and state government. I am excited and scared. I will be leaving Braylon. But I feel I am ready to work and need to. I think I will miss him but it might make me value my time with him even more. I have this anxiety in me about this. My plan is to NOT do anything to change my financial situation while I am in this transition. That way if I do not like it I can quit and still be back in my current position. Plus I am going to give it a full month. I think once I get into it and a routine is established it will be easier. I am going to be open minded and accept this new challenge and phase of my life.

A plus in all of this is that I start on January 9th and Colin gets out of the Academy on January 20th. So Braylon has only two weeks of full time day care. Knowing that he will be with Daddy will make leaving him a little easier. I know this might sound irrational, but I do not want him to think we are abandoning him. Being with his dad who loves him and can play with him will make this easier. So Braylon at most will go to daycare two days a week. I am positive he is going to love it. He loves other kids and I think it will improve his socialization skills. I think finding a place that I love and trust with my most prized possession will make this so much easier. If I know he is cared for, loved, safe and having fun then I can clear my mind and help provide for my family.

Now I am going to "try" to stay up on this blog as much as possible. However, for the transition phase it might be more about me and my feelings as I morph into a working mom. And like always I want to give you all an honest account.