Random Rant

Yesterday, there was a bad accident here. It involved a 16 year old, on his way to school. He was a football player. A sophomore. A police officers son. They think he was either texting or trying to pass a car on a two lane road on the way to school. They think he was going around 65 miles per hour. He hit a truck. The engine was on his lap. The steering wheel almost went through him. He was 16 and he died.

This is what scares me.

I was not the mom that followed Braylon around everywhere when he was learning to walk. I knew he was going to fall down. I knew that he would get cuts, bumps and bruises. I knew that he would be okay. That he had to do this on his own and have his own freedom.

There are not many things I worry about, but driving is one of them. My dad died in a car accident. It is still an out of body experience every time I write that or say it. Colin's paternal grandparents died in a nasty car accident. My senir year of high school we lost SIX classmates to car accidents. I am sure since graduation many more have been lost or injured.

When I think about Braylon driving, it scares me. I know that teenagers are not safe drivers. I know that I have done MANY stupid and careless things in a car. That I have driven under bad conditions. I have just been lucky. I escaped. I am scared that Braylon will not be as lucky.

Yesterday, one of Colin's friends was the first responder to the accident. Not too long after the accident one of the Chiefs sent out a text telling all of the fire fighters to hug their families a little tighter. All day at work all I wanted to do was hug my little man.

I know that these things are never predictable. I know that anything can happen. I know that I cannot worry too much about this. Worry does nothing. I do know that when Braylon is old enough he will have many, many ride-a-longs with his daddy. He will see what happens first hand when some is a little too careless. He will be the kid lecturing his friends about their careless activities.