Me, Me, Me

Lately, I have been doing a lot of thinking. Since becoming a working mom I have had to make choices. Who am I kidding? I had to make these choose when I stated at home and had the same level of guilt. The choices i have been having to make is how to spend time with Braylon. And how to keep our bond. I have settled that it is quality, not quantity of time. And I really do believe that.

My dilemma has come with doing extra things on top of working that could take time away. Or even would cause me to spend money on things other than Braylon, ie me. I have always know that I need to take of myself but I do not want to neglect my child either. Over the past few weeks I have had made some large strides in this area. This weekend I am getting a hair cut. In a few weeks I am spending a WHOLE day at the spa (thanks Colin for the mothers day gift)! I have a package of 20 hot yoga classes waiting for my use in July. I have been running on the weekends and two days after work. I have even taken up school again. I start a summer school class at the end of May. This class is for work, to help advance me and when I a ready to move on to bigger and better places, I will have some great skills. This class is during the work day, but I will have to make up a few hours every week at work. Also, not to mention any homework I will have in the evenings and weekends.

While, a lot of this can be seen as a me, me, me sort of thing. That all I care about is me currently. But frankly, I am doing this all for Braylon. Just like taking my grad schools comps when he was six weeks old. Braylon needs a happy and healthy parent to show him good examples in life. I cannot properly care for him if I do not first care for myself. And the class. Well, education is a process should never end. We should always be striving to learn more. Additionally, new skills for me could be the difference of him going to a cheap college over the college of his dreams.

End the end, everything I do since the moment I found out I was pregnant affects him. And I now make every choice thinking how it will.

I think so far I have done pretty darn good making these choices.