Hormones???

Last night I experienced something new. Last night I baby sat for my friend Carmen and her husband could enjoy an early valentines dinner. I went over at about 730 pm and watched her 21 month old daughter Sacrlett. Colin had worked all day long and had just got home when I was about to leave so I left Braylon with him. That way they could have some boy time and I could play and entertain Scarlett better. Now I have left Braylon before. Colin use to watch him every Wednesday and Thursday for two and a half hours while i had class. Colin's sister has watched him while I was in school, Catherine has watched him, Carmen has and my mom has had him for a few hours. None have had him very long usually three hours max. I have always missed him and wondered what he was doing but it was never like it was last night. Last night I wanted to turn around and come home! I was on the verge of tears the entire time I was gone and I was sick to my stomach. It was so bad that Colin was going to bring him to me. I felt like I needed my baby and I needed him NOW! I had to distract myself and remind myself that Braylon was fine and was with his dad. Still I could not wait to get home to him. I was only for close to three hours and let me tell you it felt like it was an enternity. When I got home Colin was attempting to put Braylon to sleep. He would fall asleep just enough for Colin to think the coast was clear. Then Braylon would wake up and cry and the process would begin all over. He was crying when I got home and as soon as I held him he stopped crying and got a nice clam over him! I feel bad that he was a pill at the end of the night for Colin but it made me feel so good that all he needed was for me to hold him. I got ready for bed and he passed out next to me like he does every night.

I am not sure what caused the change in feelings, maybe hormones or a deeper attachment has bult. But whatever it was I liked it and I did not.