My life use to be all about me. I did what I wanted and went where wanted. Now my life revolves around a ten pound little boy. I get up when we wants to. I go to sleep when he wants to. I do homework when he allows for it. I eat what will not hurt his tummy. I eat cold food and barely have time to taste it on the way down because he needs me. If I am lucky enough to get a shower or do some cleaning it is because he is rarely napping on his own. I find myself laying for as long as possible in one position in order to help him get the most out of his naps (okay this one is for my sanity too). Braylon already has me wrapped around his little finger.
I would have never believed that my life would be this way. I never had the desire growing up to be a stay at home mom. I have had great respect for those who do stay at home but I never felt it was for me. Now I cannot imagine having to leave this little boy. As many of you know I have always had this grand goals for my life. I have wanted to be President or a Presidential advisor. My dreams have been ambitious. It's not that I do not want to accomplish these things anymore, but it is more that they are not that important. Accomplishing them or not will not define me like I had once thought. I could now stay home and raise Braylon and not have a worry about not doing other stuff with my life.
Braylon has brought a peace to my life I have never thought possible. He has changed my outlook on life and ultimately who I am. I would have never imagined my life like this and now I cannot imagine life any other way.
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