Tears

I guess I miss judged the feelings I would be having. I have been on the verge of tears all day. I am so sad at the thought of tomorrow. I know that in the grand scheme of things going back to work is not the end of the world. But in my little world it is coming pretty close. I have even cried a few times.

In the past 16 months I have left Braylon a lot of times. A few times I have been gone all day. I never cried upon leaving him then. Sure I missed him while I was gone, but nothing enough to make me cry. I guess it is the fact that this will be every day of the week. There is no end in sight at the moment. I just pray that I make friends fast and that I come to love going in and using my brain again.

I am going to have to take makeup with me tomorrow. I have a feeling that I am going to have to re-apply my eye makeup. It is going to be a hard day.

Oh and to make this worse. Colin will be out of town for work until late Wednesday night. So it will be just me and Braylon. I already have my bottle of wine on the counter for Friday.