Day 1

I loved work.

Braylon hated Daycare.

He supposedly cried all day long except for his nap. When I walked in the door he started crying too. It broke my heart. I did not get the chance to call and check on him. And oh boy am I glad that I did not. I think if I knew he had been crying all day, I would not have been able to concentrate at work.

I pray this gets better fast! I am not sure how much I can take. I think after work tomorrow night we will have a date before we head over to Gym in Jammies.

The ONLY thing make this somewhat feeling of being a horrible mom because I have abandoned my child is that he does not go full time! I love that Colin will be able to be with him and he won't have to be there all the time.

However, I do love that feeling that I got when I went to get him. I could not wait to get there. I hated every red light I was stopped at. All I wanted to do was to see him and hold him and smell him.

I feel like my love grew so much for him. Sometimes I doubt my love for him and how much I love him. Well, today showed me that he is my whole world. I talked about him all day. And I could not wait to see him again!

Please pray for the drop off tomorrow...